I am able to live as a woman in private but am forced to act like a man in public. Private life allows me the freedom to engage in some female activities, like dressing in cute clothes. But because I'm indoors when I do that, there are some clothes I have never worn.
A simple example are coats. Since I don't go outdoors, why would I bother to buy a stylish woman's coat? What purpose would it serve? How can I justify spending money on an item that never gets used?
This thinking accepts the practical limitations on my life and ignores the intense desires I possess to have female experiences.
Another example is the subject of this post -- perfume. Why would I buy perfume if I never wear it in public or even in anyone else's company? That makes no sense (scents). While this is undeniably true, I still feel deprived at being unable to enjoy the pleasure of wearing a nice perfume. At least I did until recently...
Last month I realized that pleasing myself is sufficient reason to buy perfume. So I did. I went to Sephora, sampled their wide selection of perfumes and selected one that appeals to me. It is Clinque Happy Heart. I like its fresh scent; it reminds me of watermelons.
I wear this scent now whenever I dress up. Doing that makes me happy. I love catching a whiff of the perfume as I move around. I hove to spray it on and sniff its sweet scent. Even though there is nobody else around to share this with, I've decided that making myself happy is adequate justification for impracticality.
Do you wear perfume? Why? What brands do you like?