Tuesday, December 15, 2015
The Journey Takes A Thousand Steps
In a short period of time, I've travelled far. I started exploring my femininity in a serious way five years ago. Assessing where I am today, I'm surprised. This blog reflects that progress and it's manifest.
In the beginning, I was scared buying female clothes. I was nervous just shopping in women's stores. Now I'm utterly unfazed as I pick through skirts, purchase panties, and pop into precious boutiques.
Signs of development are everywhere. For the longest time, when I posted an outfit I surrounded it with lengthy explanation. Unknown to me, I was revealing anxiety about exposing my true self. I felt an urgent need to justify my behavior, as if I needed permission to present as female. Reading those posts now, they sound like desperate pleas for approval. Because they were.
I've moved past that point. I no longer worry about wearing anything and don't need anyone's permission to have fun. I welcome constructive criticism and learn from feedback. My self-esteem is no longer fragile. I've acquired confidence in my innate right to be myself.
My feminine development affects many areas of my life, like my friendships with other women. It heightens my understanding of common social experiences women have. Years of careful study have given me valuable insights in this area. And that reservoir of knowledge keeps growing.
To avoid disappointment, I don't look into the future. But I'm pleased with where I am. I'm on the right path and moving forward every day. Thank you for your encouragement and support which have made this journey possible.